cptsdchouette:

me: wow i am really Not Feeling Good

every single one of my self destructive behaviours: :(((( i’m here for u babe :(( come to me anytime bb

tyridot:

me: i don’t want to be mentally ill
me, but quieter: but i also don’t want to recover because i don’t know who i’d be without my mental illnesses since they are practically my personality and recovery seems scary and it seems the only point of my life is to hurt because that’s all i’ve ever known. somehow mental illness is a comfort blanket even though it is the reason i need a comfort blanket to begin with and the world beyond this seems oddly confusing and terrifying 

Why does this itchy feeling of wanting to just kill myself only come when everything Was slowly falling into a good place?

radiojamming:

i hope in 2017, your anxiety is lower, your self-esteem is higher, your writer’s block or artist’s block goes away, and you can come back on december 31st and say, “hey, that wasn’t so bad.”